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I've been here for two years now? Almost three. That's some messed up shit. I've been looking through my profile and some of the things I've posted and its mostly been me shaking my head in embarrassment.
I wish I had the heart to go through and delete everything but, I'm not going to. I like looking back on it because then I can remember what i was feeling and doing when I was writing that stuff. And even now when I'm still writing I like looking back on all of that.
And I've realized that all I do is ramble when I write these.
But still, thank you to all of you beautiful people that put up with me back then and even now when I've pretty much abandoned this website.
Anyways, thanks everyone. I might post something every now and again.
We'll see.
Xoxo,
-Alyssa
I wish I had the heart to go through and delete everything but, I'm not going to. I like looking back on it because then I can remember what i was feeling and doing when I was writing that stuff. And even now when I'm still writing I like looking back on all of that.
And I've realized that all I do is ramble when I write these.
But still, thank you to all of you beautiful people that put up with me back then and even now when I've pretty much abandoned this website.
Anyways, thanks everyone. I might post something every now and again.
We'll see.
Xoxo,
-Alyssa
I'm afraid of 7 out of 72 fears
I figured I owed you guys something since my last post was September of last year lol
Are you afraid of:
[ ] the dark
[ ] staying single forever
[ ] being a parent
[ ] giving birth
[ ] being myself in front of others
[x] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[ ] heights
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] fish
[ ] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants
total so far:
X: 1
[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[/] deep water
[ ] snakes
[ ] silk
[ ] the ocean
[ ] failure
[ ] success
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] girlfriends/boyfriend's dad
[ ] girlfriends/boyfriend's mom
[ ] rats
[ ] jumping form high places
[ ] snow
total so far:
X: 1 + 1/2
[ ] rain
[ ]
Jesus Christ.
Its been forever since I've posted anything. I'm sorry for that and I am doing better for all of those who are interested. I don't think that I'll be posting anything soon but I just wanted to update...
Guys I don't think I can do this anymore...
After everything that happened today and all the drama, I really don't think I can do this anymore. I just relapsed and I'm crying me eyes out typing this I think he hates me and I cant take it. I just want to crawl in a hole and die...
My life.
I'm sorry if anyone thinks this is spam but I'm tired of keeping this all to myself.
I've been told to kill myself, tried to, thought about it, Been screamed at, insulted, hit, beat, cut, smoked, burned, binged, purged, starved, had anxiety attacks, been broken(Still am), Hurt, depressed, called insane, tried to be put into a mental institution(By my own mother no less.), Been diagnosed with more things than most people thought possible. And yet, I'm still here. After 2 suicide attempts and everything listed above. I'm still here, on this earth, still breathing and blinking and talking and walking. I have people that care, and people that
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